Changes

This week has been just a little intense.
Sunday- I broke up with Justin. I spent a long while praying and trying to figure out what to do. It was fast sunday, so the specific thing I fasted for was "guidance to know what to do in regards to my relationship with Justin". I've felt kinda iffy lately, we just don't have too much in common. I talked to a really good friend, who told me I didn't sound happy, and if I wasn't happy, he didn't want to see me in that relationship. I then called my parents (who are AMAZING) and talked to them for a while about how to deal with life. The final consensus was that the way he felt about me and the way I felt about him just didn't mesh well enough for it to last. My mom told me that she never really thought he was the type of guy she thought she'd see me with.

PS My parents are amazing! I told them I've been praying about it and just felt totally lost as to what to do. My dad said sometimes that confusion IS the answer to a prayer; that it means you need to go in a different direction. I said something along the lines of "dad... I'm not GOING anywhere! I'm just standing in place and spinning in circles!" and my mom piped in and gave me some amazing insight. She told me that I HAD chosen something. The direction I had chosen was to stay in the relationship until I got an answer as to where it was supposed to go. The confusion I was feeling was telling me to go in a different direction than that. All of the sudden, it all made sense again! The Lord works in miraculous ways. I don't always get it, but I'm ALWAYS grateful for it. I need to tell my parents how amazing they are.

Monday - Kristy broke up with her boyfriend she'd dated for a year and a half. The first one's always really hard... but it's even harder when you've dated for that long! Lauren also ran into a MAJOR homework wall... and could do nothing but homework for 8 hours straight every day.

Tuesday - Justin wanted to make sure we were still friends. We are. Life should be good in a lil bit there. I got yelled at by 2 mothers at work. Kristy came to Provo. We had a girls night. We ate lots of fruit snacks and donuts. And drank a coke each. Then we watched Multiplicity and got a good laugh. Then we attempted to inflate her inflatable mattress.. with the wrong pump... at 3 in the morning... yeah. Didn't happen, but we definitely got a kick out of trying! Lauren had day 2 of all day homework. Brittany has gotten sick.

Wednesday - Kristy and I went to the mall and bought green shirts for the Stoplight dance this friday (Green= Single, Yellow= It's complicated, Red= Taken). Then Kristy headed home, and I went to work. I spent a good portion of work IMing Lauren while she was finishing up her homework, with lots of positive thinking like "You're so close!!" and the likes. Came home and Brittany's ex came into work while she was working with the new cute coworker she likes. Not a good confrontation. Lauren finally finished her homework, and is now out celebrating with her boyfriend. I went on a 30-40 minute walk in the rain (that is now snow) with Yellowcard playin to clear my head. Then I went on a slurpee run with Shane, and am now chillin at my place.

I LOVE being able to support my friends. That is where I find joy in my life. I love that people can come to me with their problems, and lighten their load for a bit.

Right now... I just wish I had someone I could do that with. Guess this blog'll have to do.

Horray moment of the day!

While on my walk, I was passing through the back parkinglot and looked at the street lamp in the lower lot. I have always been fascinated by streetlights when it's raining or snowing. This particular time was quite incredible. The rain was right on the verge of being snow, and was kinda just in the middle of a transformation stage. Don't get me wrong, I love rain! I have been known to run out at the first sign of a thunderstorm and dance between the raindrops, but today in particular I found it a little awe-inspiring being given the priveledge of viewing the metamorphisis of something so dismal and cold and wet being transformed into something so pure and white and beautiful. It was a good reminder of how our lives can be the same. With a little push in the right direction we can turn our dismal and cold moments into something beautiful and wonderful. :)